soo... i just sat down for a follow up interview for this job, but it wasn't an interview, it was an offer!

So that happened. Moving to DC in September??!? So much to sort out between now and then, yikes. I am pretty proud of myself for this one, but I have to admit, I'm also fairly nervous about what it all means for my personal life.

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Updating a bit later. So the thing is, of I did discuss this with BT before I applied. There have been a few job opportunities that have come up - one here in new orleans, a few overseas - that I haven't applied for. But this one was just so great - good pay, based in DC not overseas, so pretty close to home. It's a rare job with a global organization that's hard to get a job with, and it's good work. We agreed I would apply and we'd figure it out if it worked out. The thing is, neither of us really thought I'd get it - it's a super competitive job and it just seemed so far-fetched that I would get the first (and only) job I applied for. And now 8 weeks later here we are. I've landed a one in a million job and I'm so unhappy about it, because I'm almost certain that I'll have to break up with my boyfriend to take it.

I think if I'd moved back to Canada for a while and lived with him, and we'd had some more time, maybe eventually he would have come around. But this is just going to be too much for him. I know it. I haven't heard from him since I called to tell him I got it. I am *SURE* he is freaking out quietly somewhere. I hate to think that I'm the kind of person who would choose a job over someone I love - in theory, of course I wouldn't. But the flipside is: isn't he choosing his city/job over me? And I don't know if I could really be comfortable with our relationship if I turn it down and move to Canada to be with him and end up unemployed (or underemployed) after all the work I did to get this PhD. So it seems like maybe we're just not that able to be supportive of each other at this level. We just don't want the same things or something like that. Anyway, I have a PhD to finish, so I guess I will deal with this impossible choice later. I can't even tell anyone.. what am I going to say? My boyfriend panicked, smoked a bowl to calm down, and now isn't talking to me because he can't deal with this. It sounds bad, right?

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and that is how, the evening i landed the best opportunity of my life, the thing I've been working toward for ten years, I'm making tables alone in my office at 8pm with tears in my eyes. No one said this stuff was easy.

3:44 p.m. - 2016-06-08