i woke up terrified in the middle of the night from a nightmare in which a gunman was roaming our house shooting anyone who was a physics teacher. It can't be a coincidence that it is almost December 6. My subconscious must have been thinking about marc lepine, because I spent an least an hour in a strange half-awake state wondering which of the places I frequent in this city would be most likely to be hit by a gunman. They post armed security guards in front of every door in this town - the grocery store, the gym, schools. Does living here put me more at risk of violence compared to living in Canada?
I hate that this garbage is filling my mind.

November 17 has come and gone. This was the first year i didn't stop to think about it.

10:29 a.m. - 2011-12-05