okay. i am shamelessly scamming this idea from gillian, but that's okay, because i am pretty sure she scammed it from someone else.
my 2000:
january:
kissed everyone goodbye and flew to guyana to teach health education for four months. couldn't understand what anyone was saying for three weeks, cried when i saw the hospital for the first time, and met some of the nicest people in the entire world. killed my first cockroach by throwing a bucket at it (took me 7 tries) got three marriage proposals.
february:
settled in, learned how to give attitude right back to the people making kissing noises at me, learned how to wine... sort of. heard that "who let the dogs out" song for the first time and found it annoying... had no idea i'd have to hear it nonstop for the next eight months. met n., instant connection. got eight marriage proposals, which pretty much continued until i left. learned to kill a cockroach with a bucket on my first try.
march:
went to trinidad for Carnival, danced for eighteen hours straight, slept five hours in three days, fell in love with two guys and couldn't choose between them. a first: sex on a balcony in a hostel as the sun came up.
worked in a clinic, told a woman that she was HIV positive and would die within two years. i still remember her face.
a month of extremes.
april:
travelled into the jungle to do HIV outreach work, met more amazing people, wrapped up at work... left n., my friends, my students, fresh mangoes and pineapple. sad. flew to florida for my first hot shower in months. loved the shower, the ice cream and the yogurt. hated the cellphones and fast-paced craziness. had a really shocking experience in miami and realized the depth of class separations and racial division in parts of the States. i'm sure it's as bad here. maybe not quite as bad. or maybe we hide it better.
may:
still tried to work stuff out with n., back at school, trying to adjust. one of my residents attempted suicide. dreamed of palm trees and soca.
june:
nothing. exams, school. really, i don't think anything happened at all. i just tried to get by, and adjust to a way of life that i really don't like. realized that i can't live life like that, just trying to get through each day.
july:
realized n. and i would never work out� homophobia, extreme religious views, what was i thinking? but he was/is awesome and i love him. he wrote me a song and it didn't suck. started this diary to clarify my thoughts. screwed up the time feature when i filled out the first form, a mistake i'm still living with.
august:
finals. failed stats, to no one's surprise. taught one of my residents how to smoke up, which i think makes me either the worst or the coolest don, depending on your perspective. pierced my labret. had a one night stand, which made me feel good (cause i've lusted over him for months and it turns out the feeling was mutual) and bad (sort of an inexplicably empty feeling). moved back home. slept. played a lot of piano. practiced the guitar. got a letter from my trinidad balcony boy. brought back memories of good times.
september:
moved to ottawa, city of kickass bus stories. found three awesome roommates. started working at a children's hospital, doing health promotion stuff.
october:
they decorated the hospital and took the kids trick or treating so they wouldn't miss the event. started work on a video about the effects of child poverty. decided my roommate was probably my soulmate.
november:
finally got the courage to tell my roommate how i felt. he didn't reciprocate, and it didn't kill me. an important lesson. made more really good friends, reached a point where i was really happy with who i'm becoming. five year anniversary of s and g's murder.
december:
bought pleather pants and dressed all skanky for fun. rediscovered St-Exupery's 'The Little Prince'. clementine season! i got quoted!! wrapped up at work, left another job, city, friends that i loved. received a beautiful new template. turned 21 on boxing day.
it's been a full year.
1:11am - 2001-01-05
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