Struggled to work this week. Moved papers around my desk, 1 step forward, 1 step back. My mind in circles.

It felt like the 2-3 days after taking e - everything all a bit surreal and muted. I hate that feeling, like i used up my weekly allotment of braincells, and my mind is all bewildered and, 'huh? we have nothing left to give you. come back next week'

i really wish that i could take a couple of weeks to go away somewhere and do a lot of yoga and meditate and find a way to stop my mind from flying all over the place. I seem to have gone down some rabbit-hole where i can't get focused. I tried to bring back the focus with prescription meds, but THAT WAS A BAD IDEA. Taking a pill every day makes me nervous (i mean, i didn't like it. But also, literally anxious).

So yeah.. struggling a bit. But trying not to let that be my story for the week. I can kind of wallow in this stuff.

11:55 a.m. - 2011-12-09