5:16 p.m.
today my parents have been married for 30 years. this is a very long time.

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these days when people ask me how i am, i tell them where i'm going or where i've been.

as in:
friend: hello narcissa, i haven't seen you in a while, how are you?
me: i just got back from the philippines. next week i'm heading out on a road trip to ottawa, then montreal, and then halifax, cape breton, and pei!

i'm not sure if it's because
a) i think that listing my itinerary is sufficiently self-explanatory
b) i don't think anyone really wants to hear how i am
c) i actually don't know how i am d) who can be bothered to have that kind of conversation anymore?

but for the record...
I am grounded: home is calm and warm and soothing. It is a sun-filled kitchen and soft grass underfoot and the sound of trees rustling in the breeze.

I am wistful: i forgot how much i love canada. Am i really going back to dysfunctional new orleans?

and i am excited: i've been away and now I get to see all my favourite people.

and so...i am nervous: I'm always afraid that I will do something wrong and go from being Loved to Unloved, snap, just like that.

like i said... does anyone really have that kind of conversation any more?

2008-07-08

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