dreaming my dreams

2009-11-24 - the worrier

2009-11-15 - ongoing

2009-07-11 - I need more long drives

2009-09-30 - deep down clamped can't touch it don't come out

2009-09-17 - maybe a bit too much movement.

2009-08-31 - no more, no less

2009-08-13 - piano

2009-08-03 - Ethiopia snapshot 2

2009-08-03 - ethiopia snapshot 1

2009-07-24 - smitten

2009-03-26 - sparkspark

2009-03-25 - not looking forward to getting saggy, though. i still dread that.

2009-03-24 - leaving in less than a week.

2009-03-24 - long time coming

2009-03-23 - angst. i want angst.

2009-03-16 - medicine chest.

2009-03-10 - and isn't that a nice thing to hold on to?

2009-02-28 - paper planes.

2009-02-27 - feet in different worlds.

2009-02-26 - i need sleep

2009-01-23 - a change is gonna come

2009-01-22 - still hungry

2009-01-21 - new orleans. january 2008

2008-12-14 - -

2008-10-24 - saved by a brass band and it's not the first time.

2008-10-01 - onward, i say.

2008-09-29 - bye lance.

2008-08-31 - from nc. ready to go home.

2008-08-27 - going home, for better or for worse.

2008-08-15 - couldn't keep that there

2008-08-15 - .

2008-08-06 - i hear you

2008-07-10 - now i just have to figure out the rest of it.

2008-07-08 - home. is good.

2008-06-27 - still looking for my own voice

2008-06-22 - go.

2008-06-21 - Whose store? Y'MOMS

2008-06-21 - notes from the field

2008-05-28 - trying to be more honest.

2008-05-26 - egh.

2008-05-24 - joining 10 million canadians in an identify crisis

2008-05-17 - better the devil you know...

2008-05-12 - out of dodge

2008-05-09 - in this case, less is not more.

2008-03-27 - dear diary

2008-03-18 - being depended upon.

2008-03-14 - selfdefeating mindcycles.

2008-03-13 - algiers!

2008-03-12 - just a regular Tuesday night?

2008-03-10 - stop. breathe. react

2008-03-09 - as usual

2008-03-05 - is this a glimmer of idealism?

2008-03-04 - showing up

2008-02-27 - whoop

2008-02-27 - let's get it on

2008-02-21 - vulnerability

2008-02-08 - superhero swan

2008-01-14 - sad day

2008-01-04 - i said something because i wanted to talk about how i feel.

2008-01-02 - or as a clear sign that it's time to get my finances in order.

2007-11-26 - comfy sleeping

2007-11-23 - onion rings

2007-10-02 - blach.

2007-09-25 - not being profound, it's the truth

2007-09-24 - take this moment to decide if we meant it

2007-09-17 - gah.

2007-09-14 - yes.

2006-11-12 - bye.

2006-10-19 - 1 exam 1 paper to go

2006-10-18 - i do. i do. i will.

2006-10-15 - she said, 'this is it. this is what i live with every day'

2006-10-13 - and my room is clean.

2006-10-02 - rock n' bowl

2006-10-02 - -

2006-09-27 - new orleans.

2006-09-14 - that's 62 points, by the way

2006-09-12 - starting over in New Orleans

2006-08-11 - lastdaylastdaylastdaylastday

2006-08-09 - and my eight ball concurs

2006-08-08 - fear

2006-07-31 - on the road again... almost

2006-07-03 - tired

2006-06-28 - me, i think.

2006-06-21 - another day another dollar

2006-06-13 - and i'll miss it here.

2006-06-11 - n

2006-06-08 - deep cleansing breath

2006-05-21 - i left when i stopped trying.

2006-05-20 - anyway. we'll see.

2006-05-16 - deep thoughts by jack handy

2006-05-14 - wisdom from dreams

2006-04-13 - yes

2006-04-02 - canadiana love-in

2006-03-30 - and i will. *memories of thesis*

2006-03-27 - tired.

2006-03-25 - this is what it's all about

2006-03-24 - even you can't wreck my mood tonight

2006-03-20 - dance and dance.

2006-03-18 - spring is coming.

2006-03-03 - ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

2006-02-24 - freezing.

2006-02-21 - i must be getting back to dear antarctica

2006-02-13 - bah

2006-02-12 - the entry with the questions

2006-02-10 - i don't think so.

2006-02-09 - what happens!?

2006-02-06 - you can't handle the truth!

2006-01-24 - isn't it all

2006-01-22 - and i deserve it, damn it.

2006-01-21 - on the up and up

2006-01-16 - not crying. that's a start.

2006-01-16 - laundry: check.

2006-01-12 - i don't know how i feel.

2005-11-12 - again.

2005-11-08 - massey! lectures!

2005-10-25 - poon and ho. check and check? no not really.

2005-10-24 - in a delicious wa.y . i admit it.

2005-10-21 - i long for this and it will never happen.

2005-10-20 - sleep. i need sleep.

2005-10-20 - quiet fall afternoons

2005-10-18 - an *oprah* book club?

2005-10-16 - logic will break your heart

2005-10-07 - we'll see.

2005-10-07 - everyone knows about them anyway.

2005-10-07 - burn this city

2005-10-04 - i blame thirst.

2005-10-03 - bah

2005-09-30 - this is ridiculous. i'm going to be.

2005-09-27 - he's just not that into you

2005-09-24 - bah.

2005-09-16 - i feel nauseous. no really. that's not a metaphor.

2005-09-05 - i'm not in the mood for summer anymore

2005-08-31 - good luck! for once!

2005-08-18 - whoo!

2005-08-05 - argh! go away weird feeling. i want my zen back.

2005-08-02 - be happy. do it.

2005-07-27 - no alarms no suprises please

2005-07-26 - get it? got it? good.

2005-07-21 - yup

2005-07-20 - classic

2005-07-16 - working on a saturday

2005-07-11 - seriously

2005-07-11 - treadmills

2005-06-30 - and not a moment too soon.

2005-06-28 - baby, you've got to be more discerning.

2005-06-10 - under pressure

2005-06-03 - for real! i think.

2005-05-31 - used up braincells for today, i believe

2005-05-20 - really - i WAS kidding!

2005-05-19 - i'm going to start with crystals

2005-05-12 - that's never happened to me before

2005-05-09 - even if he is a weasel

2005-04-19 - left and leaving?

2005-04-13 - geh. no, really.

2005-04-11 - jump! nope.//

2005-04-11 - birds will sing as if they knew

2005-04-07 - and how did i get here?

2005-04-05 - the postal service entry

2005-04-05 - don't you want me, baby?

2005-03-30 - so much space documenting nothing.

2005-03-24 - blarghblarghblargh.

2005-03-24 - not quite untouchable face... but it's not good

2005-03-21 - that's the second time today; it's not me - it's you.

2005-03-17 - forget all we used to know

2005-03-17 - how did i get here?

2005-03-16 - a gift wrapped in brown paper

2005-03-15 - teary

2005-03-11 - !!!!!!

2005-03-10 - smile like you mean it.

2005-03-08 - swirly swirliness. i focus on stomach calm.

2005-03-07 - and so i jumped.

2005-03-03 - excuse me, i think we have a case of the Catch here

2005-03-02 - the lamest ow ever.

2005-02-24 - go me.

2005-02-22 - it goes both ways, you know. it has to.

2005-02-21 - as i file, i mutter manifestos under my breath

2005-02-19 - i am, right?

2005-02-17 - woo! to supertemps with vaginas of steel!

2005-02-13 - so tell me how you really feel

2005-02-12 - more to say but i have to go

2005-02-09 - i could!

2005-02-09 - lotterylotterylottery. should start by buying a ticket.

2005-02-02 - sigh.

2005-02-01 - geh. go away cold fingers.

2005-02-01 - these are the complications of coming home.

2005-01-27 - hollow

2005-01-26 - a-okay, i say. if it will only stop snowing

2005-01-24 - hola

2005-01-22 - bah. snow.

2005-01-21 - bah.

2005-01-16 - that's me.

2005-01-14 - no, really

2005-01-12 - sex!

2005-01-09 - 2004

2005-01-07 - woo!

2005-01-01 - january 2005.

2004-12-09 - today... the mona lisa

2004-12-05 - holy jesus.

2004-11-14 - avoiding the Inner Peace

2004-11-06 - ???

2004-11-04 - lovely zen.

2004-11-03 - ah! power out! send and cross fingers.

2004-10-26 - where am i?

2004-10-23 - from rajasthan with love.

2004-10-19 - marching; drunk

2004-10-18 - on dress

2001-03-11 - Now what?

2004-09-28 - tomorrow - buddhist stupas!

2004-08-28 - on water.

2004-08-24 - really?

2004-08-04 - still alive!

2004-06-03 - fifty years later

2004-05-31 - no one.

2004-05-25 - do i sound like pollyanna? but oh i want to remember that tree forever.

2004-05-23 - and c) does this entry resemble an exam?

- delusions

2004-05-08 - but i'm spry

2004-05-07 - and... thats all for today

2004-04-25 - yes we will. now i will pour myself and my multiple personaities a drink

2004-04-23 - didn't anyone see project x?

2004-04-23 - i'm not sure why i bother updating this thing anymore.

2004-04-20 - and did anyone follow this entry at all?

2004-04-20 - how did i get here?

2004-04-06 - on oprah and baywatch

2004-04-01 - feeling a little FOOLish

2004-03-25 - clamour

2004-03-20 - odd fears of washing hair

2004-03-18 - and i'll do it all again (in reverse) in seven hours

2004-03-17 - apple juice and beer. how bad can it be? more importantly: how good COULD it be?

2004-03-16 - crazy over cup a soup

2004-03-10 - and... i'm back on the gender/culture trail

2004-03-08 - women's day, 2004

2004-02-21 - Welcome to India.

2004-02-13 - i'm not used to being nervous

2004-02-11 - shukriya

2004-02-10 - 5

2004-02-06 - is there a clue here about my make-out appeal?

2004-02-06 - Oh! no, i had a bbq for Canada Day once. that was fine and this will be too.

2004-02-05 - traitor

2004-02-04 - And this time, I'm taking my cds. What could go wrong?

2004-01-28 - and i get milkshakes.

2004-01-27 - leather: what the epilepsy society didn't tell you

2004-01-24 - but i've really racked my brains....

2004-01-18 - i need waffles.

2004-01-15 - o canada, and all that jazz.

2004-01-12 - 2003. in a rather long nutshell

2004-01-12 - irritated in bangkok

2004-01-09 - exhausted

2004-01-09 - back on Khao San Road

2004-01-04 - and so it goes

2003-12-16 - plus it's damn cold

2003-12-09 - heh

2003-12-06 - and i can't even describe it properly

2003-12-05 - wonder if his hand cramps up.

2003-12-05 - must be

2003-12-03 - blurry. everyone is blurry

2003-12-01 - assuming that the cold doesn't kill me.

2003-11-30 - filmi weddings.

2003-11-30 - eunuchs at mahim

2003-11-30 - NGOs and land cruisers

2003-11-30 - contrasts

2003-11-30 - aurangabad

2003-11-30 - getting a bit caught up...

- thinking about home.

2003-11-18 - nov 17 2003

2003-11-14 - And where is missouri, anyway?

2003-11-12 - four months in

2003-11-10 - the one with the hookah

2003-11-08 - like something out of Aladdin.

2003-11-05 - num.

2003-11-03 - ?

2003-11-03 - up to the highest height

2003-10-31 - *bang*

2003-10-26 - because it's all fun and games until someone loses an eye.

2003-10-16 - although i REALLY missed that tarte au sucre

2003-10-13 - but there's going to be another one tomorrow

2003-10-12 - melting in mumbai

2003-10-08 - and that includes lingering visions of cat-sized rats.

1996-02-13 - bya. right.

1996-09-12 - what is there to say? when she's worried about bras./

2003-09-28 - not so sure.

1996-09-07 - gek/whoo!

2003-09-23 - and it's all swollen.

2003-09-20 - i think i'll go back tomorrow.

2003-09-15 - short shallow breaths

2003-09-16 - sosad

2003-09-13 - i don't get it either

2003-09-13 - made my day.

2003-09-10 - TLC??? easy listening?

2003-09-07 - there i said it.,

2003-05-24 - why i am not a good person to sit next to on the bus.

2003-09-05 - notes from manali

2003-08-30 - i want to live with a cinnamon girl

2003-05-15 - on y va.

2003-05-12 - from Delhi.

2003-08-22 - mumbai: rainy season

1996-02-03 - crazywhim. this feels right.

2003-08-19 - thoughts post-Dharavi

1997-01-23 - family-less in india.

2003-08-15 - frustration.

2003-08-07 - India. sights sounds smells.

2003-08-03 - from mysore

2003-08-01 - and maybe... have a little snack. dosai, anyone?

2003-07-31 - lock on, baby.

2003-07-28 - maybe that will get the robbie williams out of my head.

2003-07-26 - ow.ow.ow.

2003-07-24 - khao sok and beyond

2003-07-20 - and sun bears.

2003-07-18 - i'm hot. need ocean.

2003-07-16 - ko tao. day 1

2003-07-14 - cheers to a snotless journey

2003-07-13 - on the road again.

2003-07-11 - i feel like a chrysalis

2003-07-11 - history will damn us

2003-07-02 - and the crowd went wild.

2003-07-01 - she thinks it's time. (i think.)

2003-06-30 - how did i get here?

- hello, whistler

2003-06-28 - i am eating bc raspberries and cherries

2003-06-26 - cause that's just odd.

2003-06-12 - can i have some original ideas, please?

2003-06-10 - i was never very good at wearing my heart on my sleeve

2003-06-02 - ouai

2003-05-27 - woo!

2003-05-26 - lata skatas.

2003-05-20 - from saskatoon

2003-05-16 - more as it happens.

2003-05-13 - infinity and beyond, i say.

2003-04-24 - so fingers are crossed for that.

2003-04-23 - [University Narcissa, signing out.]

2003-04-21 - 4 left.

2003-04-21 - and.. 2 nights left in this city.

2003-04-21 - i want to do whatever common people do

2003-04-20 - and then the celebrations will really begin. not really.

2003-04-17 - anybody? Beuller? Beuller?

2003-04-16 - does that mean i have to become adorable? worthy of adoration?

2003-04-14 - woo! off to write

2003-04-12 - i'm crying anyway.

2003-04-12 - never.

2003-04-11 - gag

2003-04-11 - oh, helen keller. imagine.

2003-04-10 - queasy, queasy, egh.

2003-04-10 - fiiive days.

2003-04-08 - dodge. you hear that?!?!

2003-04-07 - we are lost together.

2003-04-06 - oh, and. um. did i mention... SEVEN?!?!

2003-04-05 - and did i mention i've got 10 days to go?

2003-04-02 - 12

2003-04-02 - *sigh* done. suppressed. with all sense of self.

2003-04-01 - 12

2003-04-01 - 14

2003-03-30 - geh.

2003-03-27 - geh. boots. scarves. I can't do it. Don't make me go back there.

2003-03-27 - not bad at all.

2003-03-26 - and there will. be. no. puking.

2003-03-25 - true story.... courtesy of an exchange student from england.

2003-03-23 - and this little masochist...

2003-03-22 - 23232323232323

2003-03-21 - and don't get me started on CNN. Hello. It's a war. Not a movie.. There is a difference. .

2003-03-19 - here we go again

2003-03-17 - i think we all know the answer to this.

2003-03-16 - i'm going to clean up my room now. i AM.

2003-03-11 - so. bring. it. on. [yo]

2003-03-09 - im ready, though.

2003-03-08 - hopefully not the quarter year crisis?

2003-03-08 - focus. paper.

2003-03-07 - next up: men without hats?

2003-03-05 - about ready to be done with this. 2.5 h to go.

2003-03-05 - or maybe not. maybe i'll write my paper

2003-03-04 - geh.

2003-03-03 - send. help. global warming? we love it.

2003-02-26 - i see a line of cars and they're all painted black

2003-02-26 - and counting, baby.

2003-02-25 - they bite back. nut really... so funny.

2003-02-22 - yeah.

2003-02-21 - tonight. century club. infinity and beyond.

2003-02-19 - i need to win the lottery. I need to get a job for Lonely Planet.

2003-02-17 - i honestly can't even imagine what they're going to come up with next.

2003-02-14 - HA!

2003-02-13 - The Listening Manifesto

2003-02-12 - cheers to sleep!

2003-02-11 - The one where i realize i sold out to the Establisment.

2003-02-09 - So. head down. here we go.

2003-02-09 - i don't believe i've ever dealt with this before

2003-02-08 - the Narcissa Theme Song.

2003-02-07 - argh.

2003-02-07 - or pretend that i'm intending to do so.

2003-02-06 - i hate that, even as i love it.

2003-02-05 - i must be an acrobat

2003-02-04 - my face, i guess

2003-02-04 - with friends like this... [i'm thinking hard about instant karma]

2003-02-02 - so begins the descent into angst.

2003-02-02 - so. here goes

2003-01-30 - and even then, you're not really allowed to do it after the age of 13.

2003-01-30 - nap.time.

2003-01-30 - sleep. such a precious commodity.

2003-01-29 - does this sound like the wedding singer?

2003-01-27 - in an "it's the 21st century and we have experts for everything" kind of way

2003-01-27 - everything is better when you're rolling around. heh.

2003-01-25 - right, scarlett?

2003-01-24 - woo!

2003-01-23 - please. thankyou. not. so. hard.

2003-01-21 - sleep. now.

2003-01-20 - neurotic. Does that mean 'clumsy'?

2003-01-16 - waiting for that final moment

2003-01-16 - and,... cheers to that.

2003-01-14 - p.r.o.c.r.a.s.t.i.n.a.t.i.o.n.

2003-01-13 - not me, that's who.

2003-01-12 - we float on seas of disbelief

2003-01-11 - stop whispering

2003-01-10 - April can't come soon enough.

2003-01-09 - but ready to try new things.

2003-01-06 - wandered out the back and held my ground

2003-01-06 - here we go. again.

2002-12-24 - he WILL love us. until the next time he doesn't get his way. jerkface.

2002-12-23 - pro/con list makes the decision pretty clear

2002-12-19 - where is everyone when i need them?

2002-12-19 - see you on the flip side.

2002-12-19 - yet another advantage of coloured money. that's right. there was a "u" in that "coloured"

2002-12-16 - yup.

2002-12-13 - but first i have to write this goddamned exam

2002-12-11 - that sure would be fun, but the box would be heavy. Maybe this is why ppl have kids.

2002-12-08 - loser. and now i can't be that annoying-chick-with-the-cellphone. Who am i supposed to be now?

2002-12-07 - every birthday card i threw away

2002-12-05 - maybe it will be easier this time.

2002-12-05 - this is the entry-licious time of year. could i procrasinate any more?

2002-12-04 - yeha!

- and it's out of the blue and into the black

- i can't believe everyone is asleep. wake up! leave me a note! goddamnit!

- 4

- guess they heard my sick phone sex voice

- 2

2002-12-02 - thank you.

2002-12-03 - i mean, come on... electric circus?

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