2:04 p.m.
i've written in this space before of how overwhelmed i feel by the sheer intractability of power structures. once i realized i could spend my whole life pounding my head against that wall, i panicked and ran away.

i'm back.

have i said before that i don't know what to do? i don't know what to do. it seems like it should be easier as an adult compared to when i was a teenager, since now i have (almost no) money to spend, I can choose where i live and how i live, i can make decisions about how i want to work, and who i want to work for. that's a starting point. but i'm still overwhelmed.

i'm trying not to shut down and become a turtle again.

2008-03-05

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