5:56 p.m. i'm trying really really hard. I don't know why, but i just *need* to have a handle on everything happening around me, and i get all wonky when i don't. but i'm working on it, and at least now when i feel myself getting upset about something i can ask myself, "am i just mad because i'm not in control of this situation" and usually the answer is 'yes'. i mean.. it's always nicer when things go your way, but it isn't the end of the world when they don't. * i went out to a club last night, and *gag* they had rose petals all over the place. Those are the stunts that make me avoid clubs. Also the bad music and the lamo octopus-hand guys on the dance floor. I paid the 15$ cover and it made me so mad that i decided i wasn't going to pay for a drink all night. And I didn't. Is that bad? Shouldn't we be buying our own drinks? And yet... if someone who makes three times what i do offers me a drink... why shouldn't i take it? Look at me and my struggles. * I'm going out for dinner with the boy i was breaking up with waaaaay back when i started this journal in 2000. Haven't seen him since so it should be interesting. If you go out with someone you've made out with in the past, is it a date? I don't think so, but i've been posing the question and i'm outvoted. |
