11:08 a.m.
does everyone else feel their emotions so viscerally? I've always felt fear and grief in my stomach - a queasy, empty, restlessness that radiates up into my chest and into my buzzing head so that i am all arms and legs with no centre.

Lately everything has shifted so that emotion starts in my wrists. It's a strange thing to be overcome by passion or sadness and to be unable to use my hands. Strong emotions have always paralyzed me; it seems a literal manifestation.

2005-07-27

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