an embarrassment of riches - now, suddenly, I have too much social stuff. I can feel myself wearing thin and getting worried about work, because I take my me time in my office, and then i have to catch up on work in the early mornings or on weekends. Last night i worked til 7 and then zipped over to E's friend's house for a birthday gathering. I ate salad and played on the floor with a toddler and didn't say too much.

On the way home, E went ahead on her heavy shared bike and I stopped to take off my jacket and tuck it away, and then i powered up the long, steep hill so fast i surprised myself. I felt more myself than I had all day, just myself and my breath and my strong legs. I was going so fast that instead of cutting me off, the bus driver pulled up alongside me and let me keep going up the hill in the bike lane before he crossed over behind me to the bus stop. As I passed him, I raised my left hand in a salute of thanks but didn't waver in my steady progress up the steep hill.

11:40 a.m. - 2019-04-09