me: i just don't know how all this happened. Was our whole relationship based on just my own delusions and fantastical thinking about being able to overcome all of our differences at some point in the future?

my therapist: You can't know that, but yes, even though you know it in your mind, in your heart you have trouble understanding that people are motivated by different things. And you're far too intelligent to not wonder, "if i did this in my relationship, where else in my life have i done this?"

me [having truly never thought about all the potential other ways that my life is constructed on dreams and not reality]: .... ... ... ... .... ... .... ... .... ... .... ...(*mentally falls over and curls into fetal position*)

10:36 a.m. - 2019-01-29