ugh. so i'm pretty stressed. Just one constant knot in my stomach and weight on my chest. I packed up this morning to go to Uganda for a week, and I just tacked on a week in DC at the end so I can check out the city. Also, I have a dissertation committee meeting this afternoon which is probably going to be a bloodbath. All of this would be kind of heavy anyway, but on top of that, things w/ BT are so strained. We are talking, but not about the potential job, and it's this giant elephant in the room we are pretending we can't see or hear. I asked him to come to DC for a few days next week and he couldn't/wouldn't even commit to that. It's a holiday for him and my work will pay for the hotel, so it isn't a matter of $$$.

I lay awake staring at the ceiling for about 5 hours last night and I concluded that if he doesn't want to do it, I won't. But in the light of day that seems crazy.

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Oh, and I'm listening to Joni Mitchell, which is really never good sign.

11:02 a.m. - 2016-06-10