cool, grey day. We sat outside and had salads and grilled things for lunch before the rain chased us inside, then i made blueberry-meyer lemon muffins for tea.

Gervaise down the street is happy to share whatever lemons we can grab from the tree on the sidewalk-side of the fence. BT invented a lemon picker out of a long piece of tubing he found on the street so we now have a competitive advantage and I have a whole bowl of lemons waiting to be pickled. I would normally make cocktails but it's been a celebratory several weeks and i need a break.

When BT heads back to Canada next week I'm going to take a break.. just really try to eat well and cut back on alcohol for a while. It's startling how fast I can slide into these terrible habits: up too late, too much to drink, not enough sleep, too many smoky bars, not enough exercise. I get unbalanced and I don't even feel it but I'm slowly grinding to a halt on some level.

sleepy now, wanting to curl up with a book. Instead I should go out for a walk. Shoulds. The worst. I can always tell I'm unbalanced when the shoulds start piling up.

5:19 p.m. - 2014-04-05