lately, i find i feel most calm when listening to metric's most recent album on repeat. This works out great for me, but not so much for the people around me. I've been spending a lot of time wearing headphones. I usually hate that feeling of being cut off from the world, but finding it's the place I want to be right now.

I'm taking deep breaths and focusing on work, which is actually a relief from all the lying around paralyzed with angst. It has a kind of grim undertone to it, and sometimes i feel like my face is set in a kind of be-brave grimace that must look fairly frightening, but what can you do?

This weekend I came home to go camping with family. This is good. They're funny people. I'm also going to try to make at least part of a bachelorette party with friends. Where possible, steering clear of as many of the pregnant friends for now. Too raw. It is good to have this time back in my space, but i'm going to head back to mtl on monday, even though i just want to hide out at home and drink my dad's cups of tea while listening to the whispering trees in the backyard.

8:57 p.m. - 2012-08-03