i dreamed that i was hiking and at the end of the trail i walked in between a bear and her cubs and she ate me... so that was pretty much the end of the dream; i was at loose ends so i had to wake up.

and it's still early... gah. i've been working till ten all week and i worked last weekend, so i was really looking forward to sleeping in.

i want to succeed at this job, but it requires so much of my time. Whenever someone else works these hours, i rant about how they need to take a stand and the company needs to hire more people if there's more work, and how it's unethical to demand this kind of commitment.

i believe that. i really do... especially since we don't get overtime or lieu time. it is literally criminal.

but it's a good job, i'm learning a lot, and to be honest, i just do not have the energy or time to take a stand about it right now. Things need to get done and i just have to suck it up and do them.

I don't really feel like looking for another job and getting trained; i just figured this one out. ultimately it's their loss because at the end of the year it won't matter that i like my co-workers and my work, because i will leave.

it's so nice that it's getting cold outside and i'm cuddled under my blankets. I would like to spend the whole day in bed re-reading the Narnia series (i'm going to hate that movie so much) and drinking hot chocolate and eating fresh cheese scones. That would be perfect. But i'm in ottawa... maybe i'll go for a walk along the canal and get a beavertail. Oh! i'm going to do that.

9:56 a.m. - 2005-09-24