about that last entry... i only talk to myself when i'm under pressure. It's not necessarily a bad thing. It's gotten me through exam prep, insecure romances, too many drunken disasters, treacherous skiing conditions, and dead-tired driving in the middle of the night. But i just don't know what to do.. i'm great at impulse decisions (i'm going to vancouver..No! Thailand!) but not so much at the thinking.

I'm not a thinker.

There are things that require thinking. It's time to start flipping coins.

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I've just been offered a one-year contract at my job. I'd have to defer school.
But.
I can't get enough money to go to Tulane. Do i want that kind of debt? I'm short $12 000.
AND
I just found a program i could go to in Toronto... but I'd have to wait a year and apply to start in September 2006. Toronto! what a dream! i just got back and I WANT to be here right now... and build up my contacts here, and my life here. What if I go to Tulane and get stuck in the States? But do I want to start grad school at 27?

Remember when i had more to write about than indecision and limbo? blargh. i need a camel safari.

5:58 p.m. - 2005-03-24