[gillian - well said. i am indeed smiling at the computer screen. you're the best]

cheers to regular entries.

i thought tonight would be more fun than it was.

i was triple booked, but the 7am - 10pm madness of work/class/moving wore me out. For once, I decided to be smart and not stress myself going all over the city. I chose one group because it had all my favorite people and i thought it would be Quality Time, but it wasn't the right one.

Realized today that i am almost the only single person i know. I have ONE other single friend. He lives in Toronto and i do not.

And I'm HAPPY like this. I am, dammit. But tonight i'm lonely because everyone else had to go see their special someones by 11pm, and that's way too early in Narcissa time.

Home alone sucks. I do NOT want to start dating just because everyone else is, but it's hard to be the only one going home alone to their own bed. Doesn't bother you when all your friends are in the same boat. But it seems that at some point, dating becomes self-preservation. Date, or feel like you're missing something. Date, or be lonely because everyone else is couple-y. And that's all wrong.

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Stealing from lucretia...

While writing this entry I listened to:
54-40 - ocean pearl
neil diamond - girl, you'll be a woman soon
treble charger - morale
the doors - break on through
trooper - we're here for a good time

11:08 p.m. - 2003-01-06